As soon as goodbye fell from your lips,
       Rolled down the front of your shirt,
And shattered against the floor--
               Echoing like a pin dropping in silence,
It was at that moment I decided,
        You never existed.

Each letter, each gift, each song
       You dedicated and whispered in my ear,
Burned, thrown away, and forgotten.
     Never happened. Not even a thread
Of you within my mind,
                   My heart or my dreams.

Replaced the sheets on the bed
      Because cleaning them wouldn't do.
Every thing in the house
              Just reminded me of you.
Even went as far to replace the shampoo
                        No longer wanted the smell of you.

Months have passed since that goodbye,
          The one small word that changed my life.
Sleep hasn't come so easy—I blame work,
                  Too much caffeine,
And ignore the fact my heart isn't beating
                            Not like it should.

Sometimes I get urges, just out of the blue,
          Wanting to be close to something,
To hold something. To remember something,
                         About you, I guess. Foolish heart,
Wants to remember you, but I can't
          Not anymore. Not now.

And yet, I regret the lack of you--
        Wanting some physical proof of the past;
As soon as my mission was complete
       To rid myself of you, my heart would not rest.
It did not want to forget the way it felt
   To be held in your arms—to be kissed.

I bet now it is too late;
           You're counting Forget-Me-Nots
While I dream of roses to press within the pages
                   Of a photo album without any pictures
Because everything reminds me of you;
           After all is said and done: I remember you.

Please say, you remember me too.