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Why would you want to love me? I don't understand;
I have nothing to offer, nothing to give--
There will always be someone else; someone better
Who has all I have but can do so much more
While I sit back, looking through my picture window,
Out at the world.
What makes me so different? I don't think you see,
the darkness that broods inside of me.
I'm a puppet to society—a heart that gives but doesn't wish to receive
who wants nothing more than to change the world
Somehow, someway, so it's not such a danger, such a crime,
But everything I stand for, you find something good to find.
I'm so tired of the world—terrified before I even took a step,
retracted back into my shell because the sun was too bright.
Who are you to say that eventually everything is going to be alright?
Do you not see what I see? Do you not see the pain, the agony?
People try to buy bliss, but it's only for a day.
I just wish there was some other way...
My mind is constantly up in the clouds--
And I don't think it wishes to ever come back down.
There's so much evil that lurks behind every corner,
And what's left of me doesn't wish to be found.
So let me hide in my tower
With my heart covered in barbed wire.
Because no matter what I do
Everyone ends up hurt.
So leave me to my darkness—I don't need a hero.
I find this all somehow comforting,
Like this path was meant for me.
Because when everyone has dreams of the future,
Of what they hope to become...
All I see is a hazy gray..
As if my mind is saying “Don't even bother.
It'll never work out that way.”
And then I wonder....”What's the point of dreaming,
What's the reason for every beating heart,
When everything is made just to be broken,
When all dreams end up falling apart...”
I have nothing to offer, nothing to give--
There will always be someone else; someone better
Who has all I have but can do so much more
While I sit back, looking through my picture window,
Out at the world.
What makes me so different? I don't think you see,
the darkness that broods inside of me.
I'm a puppet to society—a heart that gives but doesn't wish to receive
who wants nothing more than to change the world
Somehow, someway, so it's not such a danger, such a crime,
But everything I stand for, you find something good to find.
I'm so tired of the world—terrified before I even took a step,
retracted back into my shell because the sun was too bright.
Who are you to say that eventually everything is going to be alright?
Do you not see what I see? Do you not see the pain, the agony?
People try to buy bliss, but it's only for a day.
I just wish there was some other way...
My mind is constantly up in the clouds--
And I don't think it wishes to ever come back down.
There's so much evil that lurks behind every corner,
And what's left of me doesn't wish to be found.
So let me hide in my tower
With my heart covered in barbed wire.
Because no matter what I do
Everyone ends up hurt.
So leave me to my darkness—I don't need a hero.
I find this all somehow comforting,
Like this path was meant for me.
Because when everyone has dreams of the future,
Of what they hope to become...
All I see is a hazy gray..
As if my mind is saying “Don't even bother.
It'll never work out that way.”
And then I wonder....”What's the point of dreaming,
What's the reason for every beating heart,
When everything is made just to be broken,
When all dreams end up falling apart...”
Literature
a kiss
It was just a kiss
an innocent slip
a passionate touch
It was just a kiss
a cushion of lust
a glossed grace
it was just a kiss
don't look too deeply
for depth and meaning
It was just a kiss
let it be...
An act that could change
a single life
An act that could spiral
out of control
a gateway drug
to love
It was just a kiss
Literature
ALONE
No one can see the pain that we hide,
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why sould we involve them; why should it show.
You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.
The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when your living alone.
Literature
Love
Love is nothing,
Without a kiss.
Love is everything,
When you feel like this.
Love is precious,
When they mean everything to you.
Love is painful,
When they're not with you.
Love is priceless,
The true kind can't be bought.
Love is life...
When it's all you've got.
11/24/2003
bleh...tell me how you like it...o.o;
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I think.
I just might...
Make a little series
Of all the things I am insecure about....
In hopes that getting them out
will somehow make me feel better about them? I dunno. haha
Anyway, I actually have an issue with...
love. haha....not even love...just...
closeness....
yes, closeness
to the heart...
I don't...like disappointing people
and sometimes that fear becomes so great
that I would rather push people away
then have to deal with the possibility that somewhere down the road,
somehow, someway
they will be disappointed in me.
And I have no confidence in myself....-sighs-
Seriously, I look in the mirror and I keep asking myself...
"What do I have that no one else has?"
"Why would someone settle for me when they can do so much better?"
Oi....
o.o
Anyway, I wrote two poems for some other people
I'll get around to posting
And deviations
and comments of doom....
No, I love 'em. haha
I read them...
and then don't reply because I'm lame. haha
And have a lot of problems. SEE!
I'm a freak of idiocy.
Or something.
This has gone on for far too long.
I should be sleeping...
I just might...
Make a little series
Of all the things I am insecure about....
In hopes that getting them out
will somehow make me feel better about them? I dunno. haha
Anyway, I actually have an issue with...
love. haha....not even love...just...
closeness....
yes, closeness
to the heart...
I don't...like disappointing people
and sometimes that fear becomes so great
that I would rather push people away
then have to deal with the possibility that somewhere down the road,
somehow, someway
they will be disappointed in me.
And I have no confidence in myself....-sighs-
Seriously, I look in the mirror and I keep asking myself...
"What do I have that no one else has?"
"Why would someone settle for me when they can do so much better?"
Oi....
o.o
Anyway, I wrote two poems for some other people
I'll get around to posting
And deviations
and comments of doom....
No, I love 'em. haha
I read them...
and then don't reply because I'm lame. haha
And have a lot of problems. SEE!
I'm a freak of idiocy.
Or something.
This has gone on for far too long.
I should be sleeping...
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I love this... ♡ Your writing is sooo beautiful.!! *-* ... I could never find the words to describe this feeling so well...!!
Is it ok to post it on my blog?? (I'll redirect it here ofc.) I'm struggling with chronic insecurity and I'm trying to find a way to deal with it... You've made it look like a beautiful part of myself and everyone who is dealing with it...!!! You are my hero!! Well done... Xxxx ♡ ♡
Is it ok to post it on my blog?? (I'll redirect it here ofc.) I'm struggling with chronic insecurity and I'm trying to find a way to deal with it... You've made it look like a beautiful part of myself and everyone who is dealing with it...!!! You are my hero!! Well done... Xxxx ♡ ♡