literature

You Shouldn't

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You shouldn't be so understanding
         So quick to listen to my aches and pains,
My grievances, my annoyances,
            Questioning whether I am sane
Or insane or just not thinking at all.
    Yet you still ask “how are you?”
Get concerned when I say 'okay'
         And you keep praying someday things will change.

You shouldn't be so thoughtful
             So quick to pull me in near.
Knowing the words to make it better,
       How to make me smile
When my eyes are brimming with tears
                And I don't want to go on
But you keep pushing me forward
                      And helping me stand when I feel weak.

I shouldn't be so self-centered;
      Watching you ignore your own well-being
To sacrifice yourself to help another--
            And I watch in awe at how
You can be so gentle yet stern.
     I find myself wanting to be better
To make you proud once more
                And hope you still want me around.

I shouldn't be so absorbed
           With a world that does not exist beyond my mind.
Getting upset when puzzle pieces fall to the floor
    And it's not even the puzzle I wanted to solve;
But you help pick the pieces back up
               Show me how to let go;
And I just don't know how to repay you
      With how much you make me shine.

I shouldn't be so dependent
             But you shouldn't be so kind.
But when I find myself around you--
       It's just so easy to break down and unwind.
You put your arms around me
                And I feel strength once more
And perhaps maybe I am strong enough to make it
                 And lift myself off this cold floor.

I shouldn't do many of the things I do
          Shouldn't find myself constantly leaning
Against you. And I am sorry for the pain I've caused,
        Sorry for the scars I've made,
And I hope you can be proud of me someday
                  And I can do something that makes your life better
        The way you have made mine.
I have no idea what I would do without you.
I seriously don't even know how you put up with me...
Because half the time I can't even put up with myself...

Things happen for a reason, they say.
Lets hope they are right.
And things will be better in the end.

Thank you for being my best friend. :heart:
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duckgirl566's avatar
it was nice, but i didn't get who you were writing to.
a friend?
a lover?
a mom?

=?
i don't think you spelled it out as clear as you could have